guess who has two thumbs AND hasn't updated her blog in a year and half?
this guy!
so here's what i'm gonna do: update you on my life and explain what i'm going to be blogging about from now on.
1. School.
2. Boys.
3. Employment.
2. Boys.
3. Employment.
4. My mindset and motivation.
First of all, I'm studying Secondary Education-- English at Arizona State University. I'm entering my junior year this fall, and I'm terrified. I'm definitely exaggerating, but honestly, it makes me nervous to think I'm getting closer and closer to a career. I've wanted to be a teacher since I was a little kid, but lately, I've been thinking a lot about pursing other options that address social entrepreneurship and promoting young people to come up with solutions to problems within their communities. I'm also terribly indecisive, so it makes me anxious to think that if I choose teaching, I may regret my choice in the future or may have missed something better.
I was talking recently with the boyfriend (more on him later), and was trying to explain why I hate making decisions. For me, the worst part about having too many options is uncertainty. Not knowing what's on the horizon makes it difficult for me to be operative and objective, make plans, or feel secure. However, with this uncertainty, he pointed out that there is an incredible amount of potential for goodness. Planning and meticulously organizing my life seems like the most beneficial thing to do at surface level, but I feel like I need to invite the relaxed, easy-going part of me to be a little more vocal.
I was talking recently with the boyfriend (more on him later), and was trying to explain why I hate making decisions. For me, the worst part about having too many options is uncertainty. Not knowing what's on the horizon makes it difficult for me to be operative and objective, make plans, or feel secure. However, with this uncertainty, he pointed out that there is an incredible amount of potential for goodness. Planning and meticulously organizing my life seems like the most beneficial thing to do at surface level, but I feel like I need to invite the relaxed, easy-going part of me to be a little more vocal.
After a series of romantic flops this past semester, I somehow snagged the coolest guy I know. For privacy's sake, he's called Hobbes on the interwebz. We met through the Pat Tillman Scholars group on campus, and he is the smartest, most genuine, and least pretentious person I've ever met. His hair naturally grows two different colors. We like burritos.
So, talking about that social entrepreneurship inkling I've been feeling, I was offered an incredible opportunity I just couldn't pass up. This next year, I'm incredibly fortunate to be the Development Chair for the Changemaker Central on ASU's Tempe Campus. YAY! What is Changemaker, you say? Click http://community.asu.edu/exchange/2011/05/changemaker-central-a-new-hub-for-all-students-to-become-changemakers/ to take a look.
I'm also a Sr. Community Assistant this year, at ASU's Sonora Center. Expect rants about irresponsible freshmen.
The last semester was emotionally devastating for me. I lost so much strength, energy, and internal fire that it was hard to even get out of bed in the mornings. My studies, relationships, and personal interests just became failures, one after the other. Things started to turn around, though, and I feel like a weight was gradually lifted from my shoulders. My counselor was instrumental in helping me learn to care for myself and set boundaries. Endless thanks go out to her. So, here I am. I'm happier.
This blog is going to be a personal one, so I'll talk about my jobs, studies, and things that make me happy. I'm making an effort to blog daily. Let's see how this goes. :)
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